You're in my heart

The one that we all been so afraid to face, is here. This day didn't come unexpected but we somehow still can't take it the way we expected. Aunt, you had been one of the most lovely family members I've ever had. Taking care of me since i was little. Sleeping with me, buy me toys like barbie dolls, making tiny little clothes for the dolls. My fingers are so numb now to type all these but I think I should really type all these out to cherish you.

You have been going through, fighting with all the devils since the age of 25 and you won all challenges. You beat them all down. One after another. You've been the strongest of all. Today, I guess you're tired of fighting. You've decided to leave us. Maybe its the best for you, so that you will no longer suffer in pain. You're a tough woman. You're strong, caring and always considerate.

I miss looking at you brushing your teeth. Sleeping with you. Listening to you talking non-stop on the phone, telling us about your condition. I miss going shopping with you. I miss going out for breakfast with the whole family and you. I guess we know why you decided to leave at this time. You don't wanna see us cry, you don't wanna upset us. But if you can ever hear this, I really wanna be with you till the very last second. I miss seeing your face but I am also that you are finally at rest. Seeing your condition, lying in the bed just now isn't easy at all. Looking at how you struggle, how you were gasping for air. I hope you really find peace now. I hope you will remember us. I hope you will have a better next life.

In memories of my dearest Aunt, Low Wei Mae.

World Cup!

Well well, I'm back :) So sorry I didn't put in efforts to update my blog again! Haha. Anyway, world cup has arriveddd! Kind of crazy because all of us stayed up till 5 am just to watch the World Cup. My days are being quite nice to me so far. But I still can't clear certain things. No one seems to assure me on certain things. Guess I should just find out myself? I'm really tired of all these. Wonder why I'd waste my time staring and waiting for nuts. Like I always say, I want the ability to read minds.

Btw, my fat sister had flew to Singapore! Having the time of her life there with her friends. Her boyfriend can't go with her, thats sad. I'm looking forward for my souvenirs! Ehem :D So we have left one more week of holidays before school reopens and thats when miserable nerding life goes on. We had a week of extra classes. On last Wednesday I went out with ma lovely girls. Seing, Elaine, Shi Lin, Dani and soon leaving me, Kay :( She'll be living in New York with her mom and finishing her high school there. So this is why I would try my best to spend the most time with her. Oh we watched Prince of Persia. It was goood, I swear! The smoking hot main actor thats what makes it better ;) and we had lunch at DELIcious. Yums. Had tons of fun. Thanks girls for making my life complete.

So next up, Penang we go! Will be leaving on Wednesday and staying in Hard Rock hotel! First time baby, excited :) Heard comments and all are positive comments it seems! Haven't been going to Penang for quite sometime and I need good food! Anyhow, I still need to control. Just joined CelebrityFitness and looks like I need to lose quite a big amount of FATS. Thats not nice (N) and I am consistantly craving for desserts! cheese cakes and ice cream! My goal is to lose 5-7kgs in 5 months? I doubt that. Ok ok have faith in youself Mei. You can do it, find the willpower! Haha ok, up to here my post for today. Stay tuned!

1st May

Woah oh oh oh! They're telling me its beautiful!

YES ITS BEAUTIFUL! I fell in love with TOKIO HOTEL! They're awesooome :) Had a great time in OU on saturday! Went there at 11.30am and had brunch with Daa at Old Town. Then went to Toys R Us to meet up with Mummy Jane, abang and Baby LUQMAN! He is so chubby and cuuuteee! His eyes are huge and he pose to the camera! Smart boy :) Then went up to Neway and booked a room then down to Arena foodcourt for lunch with the guys. Neway for 3 hours! I lost my voice but luckily it recovered just in time for the concert HEHE. There were a lot of bestarians! Ex bestarians too. So a bunch of ssb students hanged out together. Aida, Shauqi, Shaun, Shi Yong, Joey Ang, Wei Xian, Amirul, Iman, Natto, Aini, Anis, Jiasin, Chi Shun, Lily, Dzakwan, Harith, Wesley, Aimran and so on! Too many to list em down. But we had great fun really! Eventhough we were all sweaty, wet, sticky and SMELLY! Really did enjoy myself. After the concert, we headed to Alsafa for supper as most of us are hungry after the crazyy dancing&singing exercise. Oh yeah, during the concert we forgot to get mineral water before that so when we see anyone with mineral water, we started snatching it and yelling for it. We took it from Lily and Aini then the mineral water never came back to them. Haha poor thingz! That's it I guess. I hope there'll be more cool bands coming and we can do this again:)

Take me there, Tom & Bill Kaulitz :)

What do you say?

HUMANOID is tomorrow :) Today is really short. School finished damn fast. Then mommy bought chicken rice for me YUMMY! Came home, took a nap and now lazing around. Don't know what to do! I'm so lazy to take shower. So lazy to exercise. (Hmm no wonder I'm a fat pig) Wow I guess tomorrow's schedule is fully planned! Going to be in OU at 11 or 12pm. Hang out and lunch with Mummy Jane, baby Luqman and abg. I hope she can really make it! Then join the girls at Neway. Gonna meet up with Shi Yong and all for dinner before the concert starts. Leaving at 11 something maybe and still have to go for cousin's bday! Sooo gonna be a tiring day. I shall take as much rest as I can tonight.

EVERYONE IS GOING PHUTURE TONIGHT, WHERE DO I GO!

Impian Morib

Fellow readers!

I'm backz :O Had a busy weekend. Just got back from Motivation Camp! Got a lil motivated la maybe. The cool thing is, we actually did our school cheer with semangat! Like super duper bersemangat! So proud of ourselves. And not to forget, our cool group, Peace No War! We won best team award (BANGGA LA OF COURSE) We went for this blind fold game at night which is kind of the best activity, war dance which we have to compete with all the other 9 teams and some presentations. Had a great time! Despite the pissing-off moment. So yeah, that's about it. Oh and my sister is still not home yet, I'm gonna kill her! Gonna get her all bloody hehe


That's for you to decide;

I Left My Blog Abandoned Again!

HELLO LADIES AND GENTLEMEN:)

haha sorry, a little bit hyper-active :) Life has been going great lately! Birthday parties, shopping, eating and school! But science is going too far, I'm afraid I can't catch up! Mid Term is coming real soon. It feels like I just did my 1st monthly test yesterday? Hmm. Anyways, we celebrated Ze's birthday last weekend. And two weeks before we celebrated Ming's and Qi's birthday. Bought Qi a Topman shirt again. This time it says (a few girls name which got scribbled on) and lastly the current gf's name. I hope he wears it atleast once a week like the Patrick tee I bought for him!

OH, here comes Motivation Camp on this friday! Haven't been going for school trips with my bunch of crazy friends. Really miss the good old times. Ok, since myself is not allowing me to continue, I shall stop here. Will TRY really HARD to update soon. Cya!

Sigh

Tomorrow is my first monthly in Form 3 and I'm not prepared at all. Haven't started studying till just now. And I'm still thinking of something I shouldn't think of, right at this moment. Listening to the song the reminds me of you. I'm so useless.







Miserable at best.

Excuse me (smiley)

I NEED TO GO POO POO :)

Televideophone

Happy Birthday to my two loved ones, Mommy and Aida Sofia!

I wished Daa at twelve sharp yesterday and Yes, I was the first one! So proud of myself :) Didn't get to wish mom cos she was already asleep. Wished mom this morning and sang twice birthday song to Daa in class. I hope she had fun today! Sorry haven't got the time to get her a present. And I never get to figure out what to get my mom. Just spend her a bday dinner, that would be good I guess :) Going off soon for dinner at Pavi or Starhills most probably. Once again before it ends, Happy Chinese New Year!!

How could I ever stop missing you, but the gap between us two is way too huge. Can I make it through?

102 Dalmations

Three words: I am HAPPY :)

Pn Jannah just gave birth to her chubby baby boy. She texted me on Monday night and told me she delivered in that morning and she mms-ed a picture of her cute baby! Omg I swear he looks adorable! Too bad I can't find my phone cable to transfer the photo into the computer :( and Chinese New Year is this Sunday. Time flies baby, really can't believe it. I've waited for months for this week to come!

Anyways, something is now back into my mind. Its bothering me all day. Why must it be BACK. Sigh, confusion. Should I be happy or sad? When I wish to see it never comes out. But when I don't, it comes out immediately and scare the hell out of me. God give me a break.

Shut Up

Don't act like you meant the world to me. Don't think you are so good. Don't talk to me like that, I'm not whoever. So please think twice when you do something. I can be nice so let me stay nice ok.

Happyy!

Happy 100th post! hahaha after so long, I know. Sorry to those who are so looking forward for my updates. Haha really can't find the mood to update my blog. I hardly online too. Just facebook for awhile and I'm off to finish up my homeworks. Form 3 is tough. I have tonnes of homeworks everyday and that's not nice :( I don't even have time to revise yet! Sejarah is going fast but I don't even understand. Bab 1 is already freaking long. God. Then Maths, its a disaster! But luckily my tuition teacher going very fast and far from what I'm learning in school now so I kind of less crack my brain. Anyways, I hope I can catch up with whatever teachers are teaching. I don't wanna have a hard time when PMR is near.

Oh, CNY is around the corneerrr!! I'm sure you can tell that I'm EXCITED :D Yes indeed! My sister and I shopped like mad women! Approximately, three huge bags of dresses/ tops, a bag of bottoms and 5 pairs of shoes? I got a red pair of heels this time! Weeewoo. Got two new handbags too. I hope this year will be a great year and my PMR results with flying colors to make it a perfect year :) Everyone seems to be very happy and couldn't wait for CNY! My sister can't wait to wear the new clothes and so am I. I can't wait to party too! Good foods! So many wonderful stuffs.

Another update. Our school annual Road Run just ended. Cemara got first. Sigh, why can't Kiara get first again! I'm losing hope. I'm a pessimist. Sorry Kiara but I really don't see any determination to win, people! By the way, I'm really proud of the guys in my batch. They did extremely well! Almost all of them got into Top 10 and some even broke the record? Congrats! Not forgetting the girls. We did well too okay! I got 7th, and mummy said 'Good job! Atleast you improved by one place!' Haha that's very nice, momma :)

I think that's it for now. I'm kind of full to death now. I had two bowls of RICE. That's horrible. ZOMG. Imagine a girl who barely have her proper meal on time and today she suddenly stuffed two bowls of rice into her already small stomach. Expanding it again. I think I'm gonna die soon with my so unhealthy style of diet. God bless me.

Cheers people! <3

Tuckito

This is called 50 First Reactions. Type what comes to your mind FIRST whenever you see these 50 words. Don't think and don't go back and change. Doesn't matter how random it is, just type it!
1. Beer: tiger, heineken, kilkenny
2. Food: nice food
3. Relationships: guys
4. Your crush: a guy
5. Power Rangers: lil kids
6. Life: lifeless
7. The President: dad
8. Yummy: yums
9. Cars: lamboghini
10. Movies: cinemas
11. Halloween: ghost,ugly
12. Sex: hot
13. Religion: racist
14. Hate: bastard
15. Fear: lizards
16. Marriage: commitment
17. Blondes: i love
18. Slippers: black
19. Shoes: i dont wear
20. Asians: me
21. Past time: no regrets
22. One night stand: irresponsible
23. My cell phone: touch screen and suck
24. Smoke: tried it
25. Fantasy: no fantasy
26. College: sunway
27. High school life: doing fine
28. Pyjamas: boxers
29. Stars: shiny
30. Center: middle
31. Alcohol: drunk
32. The word love: need trust
33. Friends: good
34. Money: need lots!
35. Heartache: guys
36. Time: flies
37. Divorce: hard
38. Dogs: puppies
39. Undies: not nice
40. Parents: nag
41. Babies: mine!
42. Ex: none
43. Song: hot chick
44. Color: blonde
45. Weddings: gowns!
46. Pizza: pepperoni
47. Hangout: shoppinggggggg
48. Rest: sleep
49. Goal: football
50. Inspiration: books

Ops

HELLO?

hehe I'm back! (again, ops) sorry la, I am really really very lazy to blog nowadays. Can't find any interesting issues to update. Well, I do have a few but I don't think I'll be able to describe it here because it is definitely very private and.. complicated. The first issue is, I think I kind of have good feeling for someone. GOOD FEELING, thats it. This person is definitely NOT the right person to fall in love with. Very awkward and weird indeed. Though I have to admit he's hot, stylish and whole lot of cool stuffs about him. Then, there's always a 'but'. I just can't face this fact. The fact that he is........ Sigh. Right at this moment, I really wish I could stop thinking for just a while. My brain is not working rationally.

Second issue:
I am upset. Simply just upset. Expectations from people around me that I clearly do not meet. Yea, I'm really SLOW. Slow in terms of physically and mentally. I don't mind taking straight forward advises from others and I'm trying really hard NOT to be sad after listening to their advises. Their comments about my weakness. I am trying my best to change and to learn. Yet they kept comparing me with others. I know I can't be the BEST. I'm not even close to best. I know telling me my weakness are for my own benefits but you don't have to repeat it every 2 minutes. I'll do my level best to improve and if I'm slow, then don't come to me and ask me to do stuffs when you think that I'll be too slow to complete it. If you think my help won't make any difference then don't come to me. Like they said, Im still very far from the 'good' level. So stop bugging me about things you think I'm incapable of doing. I'm sorry I don't have sikap keterbukaan. Give me a break. I need some time to cool down.

Sapa buat crime?

DO IT THE HARDCORE WAY :)

The Bank

Sorry for leaving my blog abandoned. IM BACK! to blog after almost a month I didn't update. It was a long long month I'm telling you. Storing as much knowledge as my brain can hold. So finally, exam is over and I'm free! Things that I'm looking forward to right now is the long holidays, shopping, movies and results? Nah lets not talk about that right now. So anyway, I think I'm gonna do so many things when I get the chance to go out to the mall. Especially when holidays start. Get manicure, more and more shopping, a piercing on somewhere ;) (MAYBE). Yeah that's the only thing I'm excited about. But I'm afraid I can't bear the pain! Man. It's okay. We'll see.

Oh yeah, Jennifer's body is out! So is Time Traveller's Wife! and Poker King! Heeheee I shall call the girls soon :) tooodaah

A Thousand of Nights

I removed this picture as my wallpaper because I don't wanna look at it every night before I could go to bed. I need to quit this habit of thinking about you every day and night. Its hurtful, its torturing. Though I still don't know when I'll stop loving you. Maybe I already did, but your picture in my head just won't fade away.

Thanks for giving me the best year of 200* that others can't probably give me.

Deli

So yesterday was a super good day. Grace finally went out with us after soooo long long. I was so happy. :) After gathering everyone, we went to get our tickets for Sorority Row. My movie!! So my type weh. Then we went window shopping. Here comes the best part, Grace and I both have the 25 bucks voucher at F3. So we decided to go in Topshop and check out things that worth 25 bucks. We saw undies and decided to get the same ones. Gracie chose the Wonderwoman and I chose a Danger Mouse. hahahha. 2 undies for RM16.60 :) the other girls to U-bowl first while we get our undies. So the results was, Jeja got first, then Daa, then me, comes Dani, and lastly Gracie :) She scored 9! That's a good start :)

Oh we also had Delicious for lunch! I had my Caesar salad again but with chicken this time. The bowling part was just to kill time and then we headed for our movie. Grace sat next to me and I told her, "Gracie, lets try not to cover our eyes with our hands this time. I wanna try" She said OK and she looked really steady and brave. (wow) After the first girl was killed, both of us started guessing if its a ghost movie or a psycho movie. Ok, that went on for quite awhile. Then we saw this man in black started killing, yes that clears our question marks. I was so tired of being scared and frightened, I kept on leaning on Gracie's shoulder, trying to fall asleep. AIYO WHAT THE HECK.

After the movie, we walked around and Jejas went home first :( Then Dani and us. Jeja was being so hyper yesterday I can tell which I love people like her. and Dani too! She just you know, herself. So talkative and crazy :) and I miss you already Daaaaniiiii. Daa was a little quite yesterday, don't know why. Gracie was fully entertained by me so I'm sure she definitely wasn't bored. HAHA

THETA PI MUST DIE!

The End

Skipping

Good evening, bitch and bastard :)
I'm so bored but sleepy. Hehe I slept at 3 something in the morning yesterday because I went pick up my sister and Yolks from the airport. They just got back from HK. They said it was a hell of a trip. For sure, Fatty shopped like craaaazzzayyy! Two of her luggages are full of nice clothes! She bought a bag and few pairs of shoes and bags of clothes. She even met some HK celebs. Cool stuff :) Glad she's home. I miss her, I have to admit. Oh she bought me a shirt too! Checkered. PURPLE!

Then she bought this really nice Ferrero which you can't find it here in Malaysia I guess. Since I've never seen it anywhere yet. Its really addictive! She gave me a box of four that Ferrero and I finished it within a few minutes. And now I don't know where to get those chocolates :( There's a mushroom toy in my room! On my mirror, its blue! To conclude, she spent all Yolks' money. HAHA, poor thing la yolks.

Yolks joined us for dinner and we had Thai food again today at Pav. Then we shopped a lil. It was nice hanging out with just me and Fatty. Let's just put a smile on my face and enjoy my another one or two years with my closest sister before she marries and she's no longer in the family. Its not that she's not a part of the family but she'll be conquered by the husband. Only with her husband's permission, she could come back to her very own home. Her husband and children will always come first then her beloved sisters and parents. I'm sure she'll have less time to entertain me and even talks me. This is why when everytime we talk about her marriage, I would either act deaf or start crying. I get very crybaby at this issue. Just when we talk about her, leaving or when I felt like she treats her boyfriend so much better than to me, my tears start flowing. I think I've gone a little crazy with my sister. I need to go for psychologist. HEELLPPP

MR. A

STOP THINKIIIING! Be patient and wait till the day comes and you can get what you want to know. DONT BE CRAZYYYYYY!