Ops

HELLO?

hehe I'm back! (again, ops) sorry la, I am really really very lazy to blog nowadays. Can't find any interesting issues to update. Well, I do have a few but I don't think I'll be able to describe it here because it is definitely very private and.. complicated. The first issue is, I think I kind of have good feeling for someone. GOOD FEELING, thats it. This person is definitely NOT the right person to fall in love with. Very awkward and weird indeed. Though I have to admit he's hot, stylish and whole lot of cool stuffs about him. Then, there's always a 'but'. I just can't face this fact. The fact that he is........ Sigh. Right at this moment, I really wish I could stop thinking for just a while. My brain is not working rationally.

Second issue:
I am upset. Simply just upset. Expectations from people around me that I clearly do not meet. Yea, I'm really SLOW. Slow in terms of physically and mentally. I don't mind taking straight forward advises from others and I'm trying really hard NOT to be sad after listening to their advises. Their comments about my weakness. I am trying my best to change and to learn. Yet they kept comparing me with others. I know I can't be the BEST. I'm not even close to best. I know telling me my weakness are for my own benefits but you don't have to repeat it every 2 minutes. I'll do my level best to improve and if I'm slow, then don't come to me and ask me to do stuffs when you think that I'll be too slow to complete it. If you think my help won't make any difference then don't come to me. Like they said, Im still very far from the 'good' level. So stop bugging me about things you think I'm incapable of doing. I'm sorry I don't have sikap keterbukaan. Give me a break. I need some time to cool down.