A Certain Someone

Can you please assure me? You're like a mute radio that suddenly make things unspoken. I need your assurance, I really do. Please tell me something, something I wanna know. If it isn't what I wanted you to feel, its ok, I'll move on.

23 February

O-M-G!
I am so sorry, Aida! I was too busy with my diet plan so I planned not to go anywhere and just sit on the sofa eating fruits instead. *sobs* I wanted to talk about Daa's surprise birthday party. So, there it goes again, Daa's mom made her day, AGAIN. I remember when we're standard 6 back then, her mom wasn't in Msia and she told En. Nik to give Daa a birthday card and bought a cake for a birthday celebration in school (is that what exactly happened?) haha. Yeah, and this year, Daa's mom gave her the most memorable birthday party. She bought pizza hut and a cake secretly and brought 'em to school. So we all pretended like we're NOT celebrating her bday and she's just so blur. We had cheer practice until 5.30pm, I was so excited! but I had to act like nothing for such a long period of time. Then Jan went to primary with Nicole to set up the party. I was supposed to entertain Daa and ensure that she doesn't see what Jan's doing.
That day was so fulfilling and her tears were filled with joy! I can't even describe the exact situation but I know Daa really loves it :') I hope we'll be doing another surprise party for her next year again!

Love, Mei

Critism

Humans, humans. Please stop being so critical, judging people when you don't even know them, insult them by their appearance, thinking you're the best, and calling them whores, sluts, bitches and so on :) what goes around comes around. Now, you'll have the worst nightmare. :)

My Biggest Fear

The one and only thing I fear most is LIZARDS. People, can you imagine how soft and scary lizards are? There's this one time when I was little, I went to my mom's office. Then I saw a lady walking pass me and I looked down at her leg, I saw a lizard sticking on her leg. I thought she sticked a lizard sticker or something on her leg as a trend or something? So I didn't bother to tell or ask her. So when she went next door, all of a sudden I heard "AHH!!" then.. I knew that lizard was real. From that day, I would at least take 20 meters away from every single lizard to prevent any major reactions that might cause injuries to others. Pfft, I'm serious, one time, when I was going into the toilet, there was a black-spotted lizard gliding furiously off the wall then I shouted loudly until I could hear my echo and ran out to the living room crying unstoppable. I think its the only creature that could scare me to death. Seriously, a reminder to everyone, you will know how scary it is when it try to break its tail and approaches you. Oh God.

Mei

Your Existence

Mamma mia! I'm running out of posts titles. hmph, ok I wanna write about love songs today (: since I didn't go for school today, laugh out loud. Recently I've been listening to those real heart-breaking songs, and yes I thought of you again. How could I ever get over you? Or maybe I'm referring to you, or you. I'm not sure which one of you I'm exactly referring towards. Oh, YOU. Can you stop being so woody and talk to me? I'm so frustrated here waiting for you to come and just open your mouth and spit some saliva out! Pfft. Anyway, I don't think we can get along. You are one total different person I can't communicate with. If I'm with my friends, I can simply dig some shits and start being nuts. To you, all I do is to just stare at you, giving you that evil glare. :) so yeah, byebye my dear sweetheart

Right Here With Me;
When you feel your heart's guarded
And when you see the breaks started
And when the clouds have all departed
You'll be right here with me

And when your tears are dry from crying
And when the world's turned silent
And when the clouds have all departed
You'll be right here with me

Thinking of you;
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
was looking into..

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know


Hey, what if humans turn cold-blooded one day? That will be the most awesome thing that'll ever happen! But how I meant by saying cold-blooded is not the actual meaning of it, is that, there's one day humans lost their humanity, sympathy and conscience. I think I've lost mine, most probably. My grandma got hospitalized for having breathing difficulty and high blood pressure. When I was in the car with my mom, I told her that I've been so care-free constantly. Maybe I'm all grown up now and I knew all the issues they made up causing all the family members in tons of arguments and disagreements. I'm tired of being upset over all these stuffs and so what if my grandma is on the sick bed? Can I help? No I can't but to cry and say 'get well soon, take care'. Nothing more I could do, only God decides whether or not she should leave the world or stay. I'm sure this sounded really absurd to people and I'm not sure myself if I'm doing the right thing. Forgive me.

Mei

Desire

I guess its time, the year that I won't be taking any track events. I'll take good care of my past years' medals.

Mei, 2009

A New Home

Oh well, my parents made their decision! And the new house owner is a dude from Scotland :) cool stuff huh! Honestly, I don't mind shifting to another house cos the only reason why I don't wanna leave the house is because I know I will miss my bedroom and all. Basically, theres nothing for me to feel upset or depressed about. All I want is a warm and blissful family. Thats all about it. First, my parents are much relieved now, I get a new house and an additional of a new phone! Another thing is, I don't think I'll need to explain to my friends why I shift into a smaller house. Cos I think it doesn't really matters if I'm in a smaller or larger house? As long as I still have a shelter to avoid rains and lightnings I'm very much thankful. I think I've grown up. Thank God.

Boston

This feeling is killing me. I'm not sure what exactly is in my mind and my heart is just tearing itself into pieces. I have this awkward feeling when I'm around him. Though we're closer compared to before, we were way unfriendly back then. I'm glad that our friendship went to a better condition. I know I'm so pathetic but, right now I really wish that he doesn't talk to me, then I won't suffer like I do now. Anyways, I'm really happy for him, congrats dude (: you finally got what you want. Stick with the girl you think that she belongs to you and you're the only one who has the key to her locked up heart.

Yours sincerely,
Mei <3

An Immortal Friend

Today, there it is, it reached. Today is the day that Nab has to leave us. I know she can't do anything about it but being upset and cry. She still has two younger siblings in primary and she knows she has to do something about it. Her parents changed her to BU3, which is much far away from us. Nab and I are like twins, seriously. Just that we're one Cina and one Melayu. :) Nab is my partner in everything. Netball, cheerleading and in everything I do, I'd pull her along. Especially during netball time. When I'm about to shoot, she'll put her hands up high, get ready to take the ball if I don't shoot. And I don't feel pressure at all.

Another thing, recently, we were crazy about our 'someone'. When everytime I saw my someone, she'll be the first one who shouts and yells at me, calling 'MEI! there he is!' and both of us start jumping around laughing hysterically. SO she planned to confess to her someone, I'm not sure if she did it already but I'll always support and agree with every decision she make. And I know she loves this guy to beat. Yeah, us both are like that, all the time. We're nuts I can say. Just because of that, I swear I can't live without her. I do everything with her and God is expecting me to live life all alone now? No matter what, I'll get to see her soon. I'll make sure I see her! And I hope she can adapt to the new school environment. Don't miss us too much, Nabil. If anyone bully you in your school, I SWEAR they won't have a good life after that. *giggles*

I always love you, Nabil.

Mei <3