Chinese New Year '09

First and foremost, Thanks alot for your presence to make the party the most wonderfullest and fulfilling one I've ever had!

It was an awesome night. My house was so full and packed until i felt like there was no more space for me. Before we got the party started, my elder sister was so excited and eager to cheat my LITTLE friends' money! And Nicole Mei Fern was the one and only who jumped into the pool all by herself. haha, she's so cute! Poor thing, nobody wants to join her. Then, the arrival of all my dudes and dudettes. Its a CNY party and also sort of a reunion. I invited all my old schoolmates who are no longer in SSB. Especially someone I haven't been meeting for years. Seriously, YEARS. She was my bestfriend when I'm in Standard 4. She's Karin. I'm glad she came and I'm surprisingly happy to meet her again, wondering how would she look like after so many years not meeting up. She's skinny, very skinny and she told us she had 6 boyfriends. So, we kind of talk like we're bestfriends? I guess she didn't change much. Perhaps. After that, everyone squeezed in the theatre and they watched House Bunny, then 4bia. Holy mama, everyone was shouting and screaming like friggin' deadshit! They went so high. x) So were my parents, sister and soon to be brother in law ;)

So, my post for my CNY party shall end here. Lastly, I'm very much thankful for the memories and I swear I would cherish them till the end of time.

Lots of love,
Mei

Inter-course

I can't read this someone's mind. Why is this someone wanting to make love so desperately? I guess it is normal for the age this someone is in now, but, I can't accept the fact that this someone actually become so horny than I'd expected. Plus, this someone is so called my closest friend, but, I don't get any news from this someone. This year, is gonna ultimately change. It already start changing. I hope, I'll still be seeing the same old this 'someone'. Right now I get why this someone doesn't talk to me that much. Because this someone has someone in mind already. One thing I totally don't get it, I'm disappointed of this someone's change. Into a total different person, so strange and, unreadable. Whether its true or not about the rumors spread, I hope you know what exactly you're doing my friend. You're my best friend. I share everything with you and I hope you do the same.

LOVE,
Mei.

Passion

You're so addictive, the feeling towards you I can't resist.
Do you think that feeling for you will last?
I'm afraid if you found out, I'm having a crush on you, you'd run away.
I have low self-esteem I admit.
I walked pass you on purpose, almost everyday.
Though, I can't look you in the eyes.
Your thoughts I can't decode.
Especially your smiles.
Was it from a friend or someone more than just a friend?
Every action you take, I can hardly differentiate whether you're just behaving like before,
or I'm just thought too much?
My fellows say I shall just leave things untold.
When its the right time, moment, weather, and place.
Probably the answer comes when its most unexpected.
Its always been this way.
To my utter astonishment,
The guy I had fall head over heels for, appeared in my life.
At the moment that I'd never hope he'll be there.
That's the guy before.
Now, I'm utterly over him.
Perhaps, I found someone way better.
I guess he is one.
Hopefully, he feels the same.

Mei, xoxo

Knee

I have a major knee pain and so are my friends. Everyone seems to be having knee problems. Poor thing.

So, I was looking for suitable Saga shirt size. Right, tomorrow's my MSSD cross country. Daa and I aren't afraid of losing and getting last but we're just worried that we'll be real exhausted and can't continue jogging. I'm definitely sure the distance will be way further compared to our school's road run. Apparently, I'm excited x) So Yeah, I've been searching for Saga people to lend me a shirt but I guess I'm too tall and huge to fit. Sigh. I went and ask from the guys instead. EXCUSE ME? Imagine, If I would to wear the SUPER SKINNY girls' shirts like Daa's, how tight will it be on me? And I bet it can only covers the first half of my body and show off my belly (SEXY!) haha. So yeah, no choice. But I love wearing huge shirts though, at least I won't be so sweaty.

Alright. Second thing, I think I don't have better stuffs to do? I love wandering around in school. Going up to my class and back down. Although I realized that my knee is actually cracking. Plus, I don't think he is interested. He doesn't seem to be doing anything, giving any signals telling that he wants to know more about me? He didn't ask for my cell number :( I really want to know more about him. If he's wild? And easy-going.

Mei, xoxo

PARAMORE

I want slap the annoying monster left and right.

Anywayyyyy, my post for today is just to focus on my beloved bestfriend, guess who? :O
AIDA SOFIA! She has been crazy over Paramore since, last year? And just with ONE particular song. DECODE. She has been singing it all day! Nab, Grc, and I had gone mad. But its fun looking at Daa's hilarious face :) SOMETIMES, I enjoyed listening to her. If she's like extremely wild and hyper, the situation will be better. Cos whenever Daa is not smiling, its as if like she wants to kill people, which is a very bad thing. I don't know if she has something untold inside, but I'd want her to live on happily every day. Daa Babe you hear this? ahahaha and now everything she does, everywhere she goes, she'll be like DECODE! DECODE! Crazy girl, but i love :)

Mei, xoxo

Lullaby

Cheer '09 practice finally started and here goes our newly captain, Tijan Dina. I guess we can get back into a better place this year. At least in top 15 I hope? Maybe last year there's too many juniors and we're not as strong and tough. But now, we're gonna have super training for everyone! Extreme stretching for flyers, and others too of course :) I think this year is gonna be great too because our 2007's captain is here with us to coach us! Anddd we have coaches from outside too! Choreography, fitness and stunts! I bet there'll be a lots of fun. I hope my back will do just fine. Next, the annual road run is just around the corner! I joined the MSSD road run too, just to gain experience though I know I'll be like top 10 + 0 ? *gasps* Anyway, I hope 2009 sports activities and all will go on smoothly. No injuries, No pain!

Desperation

I'm nervous. My heart beats faster when he's getting every inches closer to me. I ran away, he stopped me. Is this a game? I don't wanna get hurt before I even get into this game. Like I did before. Lord, save me.

A soon gaining much weight man

Steven Tan; he has been eating and eating plus, not exercising at all. He has been crapping all day, being all psyched-up. AND, he loves to sleep, last time he used to sleep around 3-4 am. but now, haven't been reaching 11 pm, he already fell asleep. This is the consequences of eating so much, he gained umm let me guess, 10 pounds? dah la he so hangus-ed. Adorable! On the other hand, everyone knows how active Ah Xiong is. So no doubt about it, he still will be the best long-jumper in our school. Representing our school to MSSD! woots. So don't come complaining I didn't praise you but keeps talking bad 'bout you. Though, I still support you on gaining much more weight! Cos by then, you'll be way heavier than me and I don't have to be afraid that I'm overweight. HAHA.

Confessions

praying to god that you'll always remember me as time flies,
hoping that I could show you how badly I miss you,
not demanding for more but I just wanna take a closer view of you again,
please I'm begging you on my knees,
everytime I get out there,
my eyes are just searching for your gorgeous smile,
my nose are just sensing for the smell of your perfume,
wishing that you could give me a warm hug again that always comforts me,

it's been a year or two and those feelings still remain here,
I've read through all the text messages you sent,
the pictures you took of,
recalling everything you said,
the moments we hanged out together,
the laughters and the days we didn't talk to each other,

just a few days you weren't by my side,
i felt so lonesome,
cause we both know I'm not that strong,
nothing more i'm asking for,
but just to see and hug you once more,
I long for your return.

this post was written 6 months ago.
Mei, xoxo

Hesitations

I think i like someone. Someone I'm not really sure of his last name. Every time I went passed him, I dare not to even glance at him. When I was talking about him among my friends, I blushed. I'm confused. I was unconsciously liking him till now, I realized. But do I take this seriously, or its just a few days crush? Here, I'm the type of person that once I truthfully love someone, it takes hundred years for me to move on. So I try my very best not to fall in love. Now that he's a thousand miles away. I'm relaxed, finally I don't need to think much anymore. No point if I'm dreaming of him, kissing him in the rain, cuddling and stuff. I go on with my life. Now that someone else came up. I'm just simply afraid that he isn't the one, again. I don't wanna cry myself to bed over and over again. Being so depressed so on? I don't wanna sleep through the pain. Its been torturing me, really. If I ever fall in love again, this time, I don't think I'm capable enough to escape.

Mei, xoxo

Pictures :)

Delightful

Here comes 2009, a new beginning :)

People of the world! May you have a great year and live life to the fullest! Its better to just let go the sorrows and be more happy day by day. Get yourself prepared, be pretty and handsome for the next coming up event of your life. Humans can just be better looking as they get older, they will NEVER look hideous or pale. Not even when you're 101 years old. Just in one condition, keep your mouth wide opened, show off your shiny teeth and then laugh out loud. There, another day brightened. Trust me, somehow it works. Cheers!

Mei, xoxo